Skip to main content

Self-discovery

What exactly is stress? I'm not sure if i've ever felt stress. I always hear the adults telling my cousins "Must be lk ur jie-jie.. always so happy go lucky" and my friends say "mel's the best la. mel's always lk...Sky drop she'll be there to hold everything". Well i smile graciously to all these comments. Yupz what a beautiful life everyone paint me to have. I'm glad to be seen in such light too.

Moving on... There's 2 things i've discovered about myself (ok maybe not recently just that I've nv admitted it out loud). Whenever I dun have the mood to do the work i'm suppose to do or shld i say when i feel stress? (ok watever).. i'll be tempted to do 2 things:
1. Eat
2. Shop

Both r not things that are good though ppl say it's ok to indulge once in a while. Firstly, my eat = to munching all day! I'm quite surprised at the amt of junk tt i can eat haha ppl always say "r u sure? u're still so skinny" Alright i admit i'm not fat BUT i'm growing fatter already! My old pics tell it all.. so sad...... (by the way, i'm still muching on new year goodies now)
Secondly, shopping is as bad. I'm forever buying stuff juz to make myself feel happier haha I think i'm becoming quite a spend thrift. Trust me, i can come up with a million and 1 reasons to justify watever i've bought. In fact, I've the urge to shop later after all my proj meetings again! This week's gonna be a killer week. 2 presentations and a test. Among those are my most dreaded presentation and test. Corp reporting! sigh...

C my pt ppl? I think it's stress or maybe fear of failure that initiate my 2 self discovery.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

The Orange Timber

Today was a pretty chill day, walking around, eating and reading my book! It has been a long time since I walked along Blk 85 market. I think the last time was during my sec sch days, on my way back to my grandma house after sch. Since I had breakfast there with my grandma today, I showed der the old sch cake shop where Cham and I bought a huge cream cake (not those fanciful ones we get these days) and finished it all by ourselves under the void deck! Der and I couldn't resist the temptation to buy a slice each :) Strawberry vs blueberry...Only $1.10 each. Those miniture ones that are sold at toast box cost $1.20 and they are only 1/3 the size of this! What a rip off for something nostalgia... Later in the evening, we decided to chill at The Orange Timber @ Tiong Bahru The Orange Timber is a cafe cum art gallery. The plates are bowl used were also meant to be something nostalgia once again... hah However, I use those cutlery at home too. There are like 3 sections to this small cafe...
16 comments
Read more

Having the Chills

If you, Derrick is ever reading this, I would suggest you close this page. It's my right to type whatever I want. I won't mince my words because this is my space. I hardly feel unwell and this not the best time to fall sick. Yet I'm having the chills. Whenever my boob hurts, I will start to get the chills and a little temperature. It had to come at the time when i'm feeling totally not in the mood to do anything. I think I should swallow a few more pills. What I had isn't enough. Guess feeling down really brings down one's immune system. We just got news that we will be moving back to Singapore and the first thing that came to my mind is F*** I've to face her. That fake face (literally fake. No amount of make up helps la. old means old. draw what draw) who pretends she doesn't care or even when we talk face to face she says no no it's ok. PUI! Der will be unhappy reading this but i blame it on him for making the situation like this. No amount of ...
Post a Comment
Read more

Happy Chinese New Year!

Reunion Dinner on New Year's Eve... New Year Day 1 (Chu yi) My fav dish. It's a vegetarian dish we always eat on Chu yi. Think only cantonese eats this. yummy.. and we also have to drink Cheng Teng. New Year Day 2 (Chu er)
4 comments
Read more