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Over and Over Again

This is my routine now. Everything repeats over and over again. Charlotte wakes up, smile or cry, poop or pee, smile, play, scream, sleep again. I still cannot find a way to make her sleep without her screaming her lungs out. This is pretty much her habit. Charlotte cannot stay awake for more than 1 to 1.5 hrs. After 1 to 1.5 hrs, she will start being cranky and has to scream her lungs out before falling asleep for a short while then the cycle will repeat itself again. Can you imagine how many times a day I've to go through this? It is so frustrating. I feel like I am restraining a mad person from the mental hospital whenever I battle with her to put her to sleep.

After the tough battle, she will suddenly stop and look like this... This is probably after I sing twinkle twinkle little stars or ABCD 4 times.
Then eventually this...
Why can't she just go to sleep. The screaming part is inevitable.

Everyone has been telling me it will get better. At the same time, there will be a different set of problem as she grows older. Boooo kids are such a bother. Why did I give myself so much trouble?!?! I have never ending things to lament about ever since I got pregnant. I roll my eyes at people when they tell me how they miss their kids being babies or say ooohh she's so cute! Ya Ya she's cute when she's not screaming. When she screams, who handles her? ME!

Why would anyone want to have so many kids?? I still lack the motherly love that my parents have. I feel so deprived of a holiday. I have not been to somewhere new in ages. Bye bye freedom and welcome to my boring life.

Say hello to my grouchy baby
Even dressing her up to go out is a battle. Look at the unhappy face she is giving me coz I forced her to wear a hat. It's for her own good! She wants to have a frozen brain?!?

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